You Don't Care a Bit
So often that's how it felt. Imogen Heap's lyrics captured it so well - you don't care a bit. For much of my life it felt like I was just a speck of dust on a cosmic carpet about which God cared not at all. Of course I knew the truth and could parrot it back to any of my fellow Christians who asked - but that deep down know it in your bones kind of confidence was lacking. If I'm honest sometimes it still is. Maybe that's why faith and love are more of a journey, a progressive revelation I lean into with the coming of age and wisdom.
When I look at all the awful things that happen in the world, all the hardship and suffering it can be easier to get lost in despair than hold on to hope. Is there really a supreme being out there that has a plan? A being so audacious that they gave their creation choice and let the consequences of that enormous gift play out?
If I was a supreme being or creator that's certainly not how I would do things. Entrust choice, knowledge and power to beings that fail to consistently embrace empathy and compassion? No way! And yet is there any other way? To love someone is to give them freedom. Freedom to be, to choose - even if those choices aren't all safe and happy. Just thinking out loud over here.
Hide and Seek
Crop circles in the carpet
Sinking, feeling
And rub my eyes
This can't be happening
When busy streets
Amass with people
Would stop to hold
Their heads heavy
Trains and sewing machines
All those years
They were here first
Where pleasure moments hung
Before the takeover
The sweeping insensitivity
Of this still life
Mmm, that you only meant well?
Well, of course you did
Mmm, what'd you say?
Mmm, that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Hmm, that it's just what we need
You decided this…
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